hello. you have come to an about page, probably hoping to find out who i am. well. good luck. when you find out, will you let me know?

in any case, i will do my utmost best. i think that talking about myself is one of the most difficult tasks i encounter in things like this. it is kind of impossible to describe your own identity with any certainty when it seems to shift and change by the months, and i'm never sure what's here to stay, or what defines the personality, at any given point, anymore.

you can probably call me yavi. i have gone by vloos, zoomy, taran, and worse yet, my real name...!!

i am possessed of a girl's meatsuit, but i'm tired of its various failures. i'm from the UK, and i work as a barista in a giant coffee chain, which sucks the soul from me and erodes the bones in my heels day-by-day.

i considered myself an "artist" once upon a time, but burnout and creative block has since stifled, or broken that ability and part of me. maybe i'm an artist again! i have drawn and created more in the past 5 months than i have in the last decade. things are not all bad.

i like to be creative in a lot of senses. i do enjoy fashion and makeup, but a lot of the time i am very happy in sweatpants. i love writing characters. it's evolved into worldbuilding and creating my own dnd campaign story.

am i spiritual? i think that's also difficult to understand and define. i want to believe in something. i'm not sure yet that anything has proven itself to me. i believe in things that are older than what we understand, such as that the old wildernesses are the homes of creatures we care very little to know about. be it faeries, cryptids, or things like that.

now, why don't you take a peek around the rest of this page and my site, and you'll learn more than what i could tell you. ☆ ～('▽^人)

why this site?

well... like a lot of other people lately, i'm very tired or upset with the state of the modern internet, social media, and technology.

i'm very tired of algorithms showing me beautiful people who are constantly trying to sell me something rubbish. i was tired of feeling that i must produce art every 2-3 business days, and to constantly post about doing so, in order to stay relevant in unforgiving timelines. i'm tired of the looming presence of corporations requiring language to be dumbed down and sanitized.
_{seriously, 'ahh' is the most nauseating slang i've encountered!! sorry kids.} (ノ_<、)

that said, i still like and remember the idea of what the internet used to be, or should be! so... what to do...

any sane person might have gotten offline, touched grass and... idk, gone to the gym, or something. unfortunately, i am not a sane person, and i do love to be chronically online. all my friends are in the screen.

i still lurk in some other places. i've come back to my beloved, tumblr. and honestly, most posts will probably land there first before they make it to the site.