so. sooo. yesterday was a rollercoaster. while i was at work, i checked my phone only to see my sister had been in a car accident and had been t-boned by some cunt who was speeding down a country lane. her little car is a write off, and she has to buy a new one. but thankfully she is only bruised (i'm hoping anyway, as i've had to make her get checked out next week). so that was a wild morning already, thank fully work was quiet enough for me to call her and find out what was going on (and then to collect my head).

then not only that, i checked it again before the end of my shift and the very same sister spam texted me about our house offer being accepted, which is insanely good news! i'm waiting for us to finalize things before i talk about it again, so this is all i will say on the actual matter. that said, i did pretty much immediately start having a slight panic attack and i had to try curb it.

i am swamped with work home and study stuff that it's getting overwhelming and i'm really behind on my studies. i just spent most of my day crying and being stuck in emotional dysregulation today, totally unable to actually absorb any studying i was trying to do. i may need to ask for an extension, or i'm possibly considering deferring the semester if i cannot catch up. everything is kind of up in the air right now which is not helping the anxiety, and it's really beginning to get out of control.