today i cried at work. it was really hot (well, it was only reaching 26c so not as bad as it's about to be over the next week, but still), i felt very uncomfortable. i tried my best to push through it but, the pain in my feet is also getting so unbearable that it's getting hard to think or focus on much else, and i could feel it bringing me to tears while i was making drinks.

i had to walk off and sit and cry before i did it in front of a customer or my co-workers.

otc painkillers are not doing anything to relieve it anymore. the dr suspects it is something like tendonitis, but i'm not sure. i have an appointment with the clinic on monday, where they will further investigate it and see about a better solution.

i hate that i might have to consider asking for shorter shifts at work or something. i don't know if they will be able to give it to me considering the general structure of the rotas.

it's so so frustrating that mentally and physically i can't seem to do as much as i ever want, or as other people can do, and i'm stuck being restricted by things i want to push past, but can't for the sake of my health.